August 6, 2010

A big step towards adulthood




Q (for Question not Qpek): Happiness comes when you drop your greed
-So easy to do? 

I think so. I think it's something pretty simple to do. In fact too simple for me to achieve at times.... haha. I try to be happy with what I have. Don't ask for more. Don't envy others. Be thankful for what I have and what I have achieved. Don't be greedy. Wuuuu I can just hear my dad's voice ringing in my ears.....


So many "Don't"s to achieve happiness I reckon. Sometimes I have real trouble drawing a line between wanting more and being satisfied with what I have. I googled this matter; and as always it did not disapoint me. It told me... be happy with what you have but always aim high and do your best so you won't regret for what you don't have or cannot achieve. - I think this is a total BS. Yeah right I knew that answer even before I searched for it. Can't it be a bit more practical?? So much easier to be said than done, thus BS. Yeah, playing with words. Not everyone's enlightened and Buddha. Let him lead the way and be an example. Actually, he is leading the way, we have the perfect example. but still, 100/100 struggle.


But one thing I didn't know before!! makes it easier to follow.
love,,, love,,,,,, Love,,,,,,,,, LOVE,,,,,,,,LOVE changes you. A fraction by fraction. You are more than happy to make a detour for your loved one. You are more than happy to change your work schedule and fly over to see him. You are more than happy to sacrifice your own shopping spree to have a comfortable life together (-___- yes dear im working on it). You are more than happy to wake up earlier just to cook him a beautiful breakfast (i promise to do this!!)... See how much change can happen to you? And in return, you become happier. In my view, one way to define love would be, you wouldn't mind taking a detour  to see a glimpse of smile on him/her. 

Without any notice
Without any sign
Love came to me and I chose to love

I don't need to make myself be satisfied with what I have now,
Because I am more than satisfied with my life, with what I have (downside: somebody has been chained with necklace and ties and belts!!!!)
I belong to somebody~ (woot woot!!)

Near the end of last year, one of my friends told me that I live in my imagination and fictionistic thoughts. He made me "open" my eyes wider and see the real "relationship" world. I was looking for someone who would share the same view in life - but I was told that my fantasy doesn't exist. Some "not so importantly needed" thoughts have been inserted in my head too. At that time they sounded very serious and made me feel disappointed and pessimistic about this dull world. If that is the reality then I thought it's a very dull place to be till I die. Without intention my brain was writing extra chapter or two on not losing the grip and staying suspicious all time time (whatever this means...). I also have thought of the worst of human beings, but at the same time I had no backbone for any confirmation - afterall I'm the only one who is living in fantasy right?

But soon after,,,
I have found somebody that I can call my BB, my soul mate, my lost half,,, (wuuuuu where were u...)
And I knew I can terminate the idea completely,,,,,,

I have learnt that it isn't so much to do with how similar we are but how compatible we are with our differences. With compromises, it's all to do with whether we can accommodate the differences or not. I promise myself that in the future, if situation comes, rather than nagging and whinging you should really be thinking if I'm being greedy and selfish by not willing to give in even a little bit (apart from when it comes to buying BAGS!!!!) hahahahaha




So, going back to the beginning,,,
Am I happy??
.....I think I am :)

Are you?????

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